ambedo n. a kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details—raindrops skittering down a window, tall trees leaning in the wind, clouds of cream swirling in your coffee—which leads to a dawning awareness of the haunting fragility of life
I hate it when I meet someone and we’re actually gaining feelings for each other and its actually something, but some shit has to happen and everything between us falls apart. Then as time moves on, from time to time you wonder about the “what if’s” and the things you
could haveshould have done to help prevent that almost there relationship from completely tumbling down. And sometimes, you wish you could just go back and change it into what you wanted to turn out from it.